Blessings in Disguise

   

 It was my Senior year, and like no one else I had no idea of what I wanted to become in life. I felt lost. For the first time in my life I was confused and did not know how to find a solution That I would be happy with.Towards the end of my senior year, we were told we would not need to come to the last month of school. Instead, we were assigned internships. The internships ranged from a couple sites because everyone's interests were different. We had to pick an internships that corresponded to our career path, so that we could get some early experience. But, because I did not know what really interested me, my teacher picked one for me instead. She chose an elementary school, because she felt as though I would be good with younger kids. 
    Once I got the news of what my internship consisted of I was immediately upset. My anxiety got the best of me, and fear was what was to blame. I was battling the fear of working with new people. I was also battling the fear of intimidation because the school I was assigned to was bilingual. This meant that I had to at least be a good basic speaker in Spanish. This scared me because I knew I could not speak Spanish as well as I understood it. However, I could not change the assignment, I had to just deal with it and hope for the best.
    It was the first day, and I woke up extremely nervous. I was not prepared to work with kids let alone in another language. I got inside and noticed immediately every one was speaking English. I was relieved because now I know I was not expect to speak fluent Spanish as soon as I got there. Later on that day, I asked about the fact I noticed they were speaking English and the teacher told me that they rotate between two weeks on English and Spanish. One week they dedicate to learning in English, and the second week they rotated to learning in Spanish. By then, I was pumped. She also told me during the week that the students are learning in Spanish I am not expected to only speak Spanish but I should try to learn the language just like the students are expected to. Weeks went by, and I enjoyed my internship so much. I had started thinking that perhaps this might be the career path I follow since I enjoy it so much. Ever since that internship I had loved working with kids and plan on teaching the same age group. 



                                             Alchemy
When I was little I thought life was so simple
I knew what I wanted to be
and Where I wanted to go
But as I got older 
These things seemed to get further
Each person you tell your dreams to 
May not see them coming true
Stay positive and stick to what grows you
In due time, you will start to notice 
That without everyones opinions 
You may bloom like a lotus
Everyone wants to find what their purpose is
But will all of us ever find one?
If we let go and let God
We can see the bigger picture in our job
Our job here is to figure out a reason
A reason to live, laugh, and love
Without any of the above
We will live a life full of emptiness
When the goal is to be overly consumed in happiness